My thoughts...it's been awhile

I am so stinkin bad at keeping up on my blog. But then again I have been busy lately. We have been getting a lot done around the house. Last weekend a very good friend of mine came over and gave me that push that I needed and helped me decorate. It feels good to finally have some pictures on the walls, feels even more like a home now. My husband and I painted out bedroom and tomorrow plan on painting the hallway. He has been busy too working his normal job, helping his friend with the farm and working on the outside of the house, planting grass etc.

Still waiting for that month my period does not come and I am pregnant. We are both checking out ok. I had my HSG (dye test to look at tubes and uterus), My OB did it and while there said tubes were open and everything looked ok but she would talk to me more after the radiologist read it. Of course the radiologist felt a little different, there was a small fibroid and a "filling defect" in the lower segment of my uterus. He suggested a ultrasound or MRI to follow up. She did point out this area but felt that it was probably just an air bubble from the contrast/dye. Tuesday I go in for a pelvic ultrasound and hope that everything checks ok. I'm tired of being on this rollercoaster!

Last Saturday on my way home from dinner I found four very small kittens in the middle of a country road by my house. I stopped to look around and see of there was a mom but did not see one. They were crying for help, shaking! I could NOT leave them so I loaded them up in my car and brought them home. I made them a little house out of a few boxes to keep them safe. They stayed with me until Monday afternoon when the shelter (No kill) near by accepted them. They were so loving and friendly! I just do not understand how someone could drop them off out in the middle of no where. They would not have had a chance if I or anyone else had not found them. I got attached to those little babies even though I only had them for about 48 hours. I still miss them and think about them. I know they are in good hands and will find good homes. The ladies at the shelter estimated them to be about 5 weeks old, 2 boys and 2 girls.

Feeling blue...

Wow I have not posted in awhile. Well today is the day, I need to get some things off my mind. Last week was awful and it all started on Sunday. I worked on the floor for the first time at the new hospital for my contigent position. Lets just say long story short my preceptor sucked, did not make me feel welcome and was more worried about being on facebook than teaching me or taking care of her patients. Now the question is "Do I ever want to go back there?" I will give it another try but definitely with someone that is going to do their job and show me the routine. Geez, I know I have been a nurse for 11 years but I have no idea what your hospital is like.

Then my poor sister was burglarized on Tuesday. Yep someone or some people kicked her door in and stole a bunch of her things including her identity. All I have to say is I hope they get what they deserve! There is nothing more that I hate than people who steale. We all work very hard for what we have.

Then of course AF came on Wednesday. Everyday there seems to be a new announcement of pregnancy. It's all around me but not happening to me. I feel so frustrated and it kills me to not have any control over it! If I hear " It will happen, don't worry or just relax and quit trying." I am going to lose it! No one understands unless they have been in this situation, anyone that can get pregnant in 3-4 months or less has NO idea how lucky they are.

One positive is we went to my OB and have started the whole infertility testing. At least we can find out if there is something wrong and hopefully do something to correct it. I can say I have been blessed with a very supportive husband although he may not understand why I am so emotional sometimes, he has been great! Just waiting for day 21 to get here so I can have my blood drawn. Then if we both check out ok an HSG will be done on me. This is where they inject dye into your uterus and check to make sure tubes are clear and uterus is positioned normally. Fun fun for me. I need some answers, part of me feels like something is wrong. Although my OB says it can take sometime. Most people will conceive within 18 months. That is a long damn time when you really want it. I have been going to church again which is very helpful and I pray every night. Oh well I guess that is all I have to say today. Hoping to have some good exciting announcements soon.

Our weekend to T-town

We had a great weekend visiting my family. We had not been to my home town in over a year. I know that is bad and I felt very guilty about it. Last year was very busy for us, we were building a house, plus had quite a few other things going on. I feel so much better now that we had a good visit.

Happy Birthday Grandma Jane! Glad you are on the road to recovery.

Me and my dad




Cousins Bill and Betsy

Grandma Jane and Alyson

Me and my hubby

Grandma and Grandpa Richards

Good Luck Jesus!

We will miss you! Jesus moved back to Mexico with his wife and son to be closer to family. We will definitely miss his very pleasant and funny personality. Maybe someday we can go to Mexico to visit him. Sounds good to me. :)

Life

This weekend has been pretty good. Friday night we went out with a couple we had not seen in several months. We went to the local mexican restaurant and then came back to our house and played Wii. Today I went to church. I will admit when I woke up I kinda did not want to go. But now that I did I feel so good. Church is an outlet for me, praying helps relieve stress and I get some things off my mind. Right now I needed to pray for my Grandma who is in the hospital with bronchitis and very high blood pressure. Chad and I are going home this Friday and Saturday to visit. All of my family except for my sister are about 3 hours away. A year has gone by so fast and I feel guilty I have not been home to visit since Christmas 2007. But we were very busy last year building our house and dealing with other issues at the begining of the year. Better late than never.

Nothing new to report. Same old same old.

I love Target!!!

I was in one of my shopping moods today . Just felt like browsing around in a store. I had so much fun and found some great deals. I bought a shark steamer to clean my countertops with instead of using chemicals. Oh yeah and everthing was on clearance! Woo hoo! The best buy was a digital picture frame for $21.oo, yes I had to look at it several times to make sure that was what I was seeing. It's nice, has a 7 inch screen and mocha colored frame. A nice picture for $5, basket for $3 and a photo album for $8. It feels so good when you find great deals like this.

This week is much better than last. I'm glad it is almost time for the weekend. :)

Today..........

Today I going to complete some employment paperwork and physical for my new contigent job. I'm excited and looking forward to this. It will be so nice to have an extra job closer to home and who knows I may really like it there. I need ot keep this short and sweet and go get myself ready.

AF started today which I knew was coming. I'm sad but did not cry. I'm really going to try hard to just relax this next cycle. This is something that I cannot control, which drives me crazy. There is no sense in worrying about it because that is definitely not helping. Oh well I'm going to try to blog later about the rest of my week. It's been sad in some other ways.