Feeling sad today......

So my morning starts off with ,"you won't believe who died." One of my patients, a young 58 year old that was just in for an appointment on the 13th. He was such a pleasant person even though he had been through a really rough time. His wife commited suicide a year and a half ago. Of course he was having trouble dealing with it. Who wouldn't?? He loved her! When he was in we talked about the holidays which I assumed were hard for him. He told me his family had gotten together for the first time in a long while and that he really enjoyed himself. He said " We celebrated the real reason for Christmas, no gifts, just spending quality time with family." I have felt sad all day and on my drive home I thought about him and the last time I saw him. I'm really glad he and his family had that one really nice last Christmas together. Now maybe he can be with his wife and she can explain why she did what she did. I hope he rests in peace.

I did have a positive thing happen prior to work. A positive OPK! I'm trying to relax and not think about it too much. Maybe this will be our cycle. It's only been six months now. I NEVER thought it would have taken this long. Of course what does my husband do? Works a double yesterday, out with friends tonight celebrating a birthday and has plans with another friend tomorrow. Ugh! Hopefully we will be blessed with a baby soon.

Pretty Snow!

My kitty cat looking out the window. I think she is starting to feel comfortable now. At first she would only come out of our bedroom to eat and use the litter box. but now she is all over the place. This is the biggest living space she has ever had and she still has not seen the basement.I'm just relaxing on this cold Sunday morning. The snow has been falling off and on. It looks really pretty. This is my view from my absolute favorite chair.
It is so quiet and peaceful out in the country. A big change for this city girl but I LOVE it. So far I have seen a few birds, squirrels, and deer. I hope the numbers increase in the spring. I plan on putting some feeders out so I'm sure that will help.

The picture below shows the field where we have seen some deer. A few weeks ago we saw thirteen, two of which were bucks. Yesterday we saw about eight back at the fence line. Too far for me to get a picture. Hmmm maybe I need to invest in a camera with the lenses.

The snow is very pretty but not liking the cold so much. Especially the below zero temps. Hopefully we can get back up into the 30's at least soon.

Now I need to get motivated to go grocery shopping. It's really hard when the weather is cold. Plus it's Sunday and the store will be a mad house. I could go tomorrow but I already know that I would rather come home after work than go to the store.

Christmas with Dan, Laura, Maddy and Mom "M"

We had such a nice visit with Dan, Laura, Maddy and my mother in law Lynn. I feel very blessed to have them in my life. The visit was such a mood booster for me. I really needed it. It is hard not to smile and laugh when my 3 1/2 year old niece Maddy is around. She says the cutest things and she is so animated when she speaks. I posted some pictures below to share our fun day.

Then there is Chad.

She loved the barbie doll. I just love the look on his face.

Grammy Lynn bought Maddy her own grand piano. She is so excited.

Cute!

We talked the boys into wearing our towels that Laura and I got for Christmas. Maddy has her new hat on.

Dan and Maddy dancing.

Here is our future dancer. I bet she danced for 45 minutes straight. We turned on our Sirius music channels anything from the top hits to the 80's. She had moves for it all. Oh yes barbie had to dance too.

It has been a long exciting day now it is tme for bed. Goodnight Maddy. Uncle Chad and Aunt Natalie love you very much!

Christmas Ended Up Being Great

Well I was really having trouble getting into the Christmas spirit this year for some reason. I think a large part of it was the year went by too fast and then we were moving and trying to get settled a few weeks before. Christmas Eve I was kinda worried about being alone since Chad had to work. Christmas Eve is always a big night in my family. We go to both Grandparents house, eat lots of good food and have some great family time. It is hard when my family is 3 hours away, just not a hop, skip and a jump. :( I went to Christmas Eve mass and it was so beautiful! They had trumpets players and the music was awesome. I felt a little emotional and I know I had tears in my eyes at times but I am SO glad I went.

Christmas day my mother in law came over and we made dinner together. I really enjoyed that, spending some good quality time with her. The rest of the day was nothing but rest and relaxation. Which is exactly what I wanted. Saturday we had Chad's sister, husband and our beautiful niece Maddy here. They live in Chicago but hopefully will be moving back as soon as they can. We really miss them. It was a great visit, we played some games, had a nice dinner and then opened some gifts. I made a breakfast casserole this am and they left a little after 10AM to head back to Chicago. It was sad, I know Chad was really sad he misses them. I could not look at him when he came back into the house after saying goodbye because I knew I would see tears in his eyes. I loves watching Maddy open her gifts. Her facial expressions are so cute and she is SO animated when she talks. One of the best parts was when we turned on some music and she danced and danced. I don't think I have smiled or laughed that much in a long while. It was so darn cute!I will have to post some pics.

One other thing that made my Christmas happy was the + OPK I had on Christmas Eve morning. We are keeping our fingers crossed that we are blessed with a baby soon. Trying to conceive is not an easy thing.

Thanks for reading.....:)

FINALLY! We moved in..........

We are finally in our new home. It has been a long road with lots of stress and worries but that has all paid off. I can't even explain how happy I am.Here is our foyer area where my old tree is since it looked too small in the great room.
Our beautiful great room. It is SO warm and cozy.

I love my kitchen!

We have worked very hard to get where we are today. Neither one of us have owned a home. This feels so good!

Christmas Photos

I decided to send out a photo Christmas card this year. After my work party I made my husband pose with me for my pics. Oh yeah and the cat in one anyway. It was fun but after about 10 shots my husband was done. Plus I was tired of running back and forth to set the timer. We ended up using the first one below.

The week is almost half over......

So glad tomorrow is hump day. I'm ready for the weekend. Looking forward to watching the OSU/Michigan game. GO BUCKS! We may do some more painting, trying to get as much done as possible before we move in.

The builder told my husband the house should be done by Thanksgiving, Not sure if that meant the house and the final inspections? That would be great! I'm ready to have my own space and get settled. So tired of living out of totes, boxes and not knowing where anything is.

We bought all of our kitchen appliances this past Sunday and they are being delivered next Tuesday! Yay! I can't wait to see how awesome they look in our kitchen. I don't think it has truely sunk in yet that this is our house. Still seems like a dream. :o) Oh well I'm off to call my Grandpa and wish him Happy Birthday.