Can you help me get off this rollercoaster?

So I don't know all the details yet but Chad had a meeting at work this afternoon to discuss the budget and possible lay offs. Ugh! This would be the last thing we need right now. He said me a text that said " No lay offs for now, still getting a raise this year, I will tell you more details later." Whew! That is what I needed to hear. When he gets home later he can fill me in.

Yesterday I got an offer for the contingent nursing position at Madison County Hospital. Yay!! I go next week to complete some more paperwork and a physical then at some point RN/General Hospital orientation. I am really looking forward to having a place closer to home to pick up extra time and it will be nice to meet some people around here. I really do not know many people here since I did not grow up here.

Chad had some blood tests come back abnormal and had an ultrasound today. I was worried about that too. I tell ya when it rains it pours. But so far the results are looking ok still waiting on some more blood work results to come back. Keeping my fingers crossed it turns out to be nothing.

Then there is this who trying to conceive thing. I have been told by more than a few people that I am worrying too much and that I need to put the OPK's and thermometer away. Not sure how I feel about this, I did not think I was worrying that much. Taking my temps is a way to learn about my body and I find it very interesting. Maybe I am but do not realize it. Hmmmm what should I do? maybe if I did put that stuff away and repeat several time everyday "I will get pregnant someday if it is meant to happen." that would be better. TTC was described very well on a board I belong to. A rollercoaster! I am tired of riding the rollercoaster and I want off!

I can't believe it!

I just changed my backround and I did not screw it up. I have been wanting to change it but scared to death I would mess it up.

Thanks to Janny for her adorable backrounds and directions.

What do you think??

Worried

Well I decided to stay home today due to the weather. Turns out they are closing the office at noon. That would not have been worth the two hour drive to get there. I felt guilty at first my now not so much. It's bad out there. My husband tells me last night. "We are having a union meeting on Thurs afternoon. Employees need to give up their 3% raise this year or they are going to lay off three people." Well guess what, Chad is at the top of the three so he will be one of them. I really hope that does not happen and prayed hard about it last night. We need both of our incomes to make it. Then this try to conceive is about making me mentally ill. I try so hard NOT to worry but I think I still am without even realizing it. I started spotting today which I guess could be implantation, I'm six days post ovulation but I am already thinking the worst. I'm just sure it will be my period. I needed to get that off my chest. Now I am off to organize some things.